The Big 3-1!

My Thirty-First Post!

In celebration of my 31st post- The first month of my 12-month journey

I changed the header to reflect a more appropriate title to my online blog.

Life & Jill Went Up the Hill

Success: Based on a True Story

As my previous header described everything that has been going on with me, I felt that it would be more fitting to create a blog-title that shows where I'm headed, where I am going. My life and everything in it will be an uphill struggle, as nothing comes easy. It takes discipline, hard work, and focus. Therefore with that winning recipe, I know that I will come out of 2008 with my head held high.

I have a game-plan. Strategies have been sought-out. All barriers will be overcome. As long as I keep going forward, there is no looking back.

Set-backs are only temporary. Success is permanent.

Comfort comes..

in the form of Chick 'n Joy

Sometimes you need to fill a void.

Many reasons of feeling empty.

Sometimes there's just something missing.

Things aren't great, but they're good. Who can complain?

And then comes a simple solution. Chick 'n Joy...or should I say, CHICKEN, & JOY.

1. I filled my face with chicken, salad, fries and gravy
2. Food is my best friend.
3. I ate with <3 Frank and Rocky
4. Finished off the meal with a delightful convo-time with Mom, and Joy.

^ Even though you can't be happy all-the-time, those moments that fill_in_the_blanks are THAT MUCH better.

Melon head?

Feeling: Satisfied.

It may not be what everyone else would have done.
but I did it.

For my sanity.
I needed to let it go
for my peace of mind.
I looked at all my options
chose my own path.
I did what I wanted
despite what was needed,


because most importantly,
I did what was best for me.

I learned something

about myself, that I realized, I already knew.
I've realized that when push comes to shove, I really know how to stand my ground.

Rather than choosing the practical option, I found it only logical to follow my own intuition, this time. Despite all the negative feelings, I found a positive way to work through it. I have come to the conclusion that I really do know what I want.

Things aren't as written-in-stone as they appear, and I've found my chisel to carve my own pathway. Despite all the wrongs, I know how to make it right; in the end, all that matters is how I FEEL. And where I feel comfortable & at my best.

Happy to know, that when it comes down to it, I can really trust myself.

Mind over Matter

Think about this....he tells me.

-- Ever have those days where you're so down, no one can tell you there's UP? I've been having a lot of those lately. He's ALWAYS known exactly what to do, & what to say to relieve me of my self-induced anxiety. I tend to overthink a lot of things, and the perfectionist inside of me takes over. It's always a good thing to have the ONE person, who can make you feel like YOU again.

His words of wisdom:

• This is only temporary
• There are days when I don't want to go in...but I do, for you.
• I'm looking towards the future. I'm looking at the big picture.
• Be strong.
• I know it may be hard on you, but you'll learn from it.
• Think of me, and I'll be thinking of you.
• In the end, this only benefits you.
• At the end of the day, you have me and Rocky to come home to.

Feeling: Comforted. Loved. but Anxious, and Nervous at the same time.

Forever and a day

!books, essays, assignments, exams!

Wanna go back. go back right now! need to fill my brain with useful information and apply my school-skills to assignments again. Missing the rituals. Missing the stress. Missing that life-- just wanna go back. Counting down, but it seems so far away--- forever and a day!

The way I see it, "It's hard to be will-ful if your will's been broken."

Feeling: Melancholy. Distracted. In my own world.

Untraceable

Movie Review (minus spoilers)

Feeling: Distracted, anxious

Frank and I are avid movie-goers, despite our bad, bad, habit of buying ripped movies.

Throughout the year, I will be cataloging the movies we see (in theatre), giving my yay or nay, all without spoilers..

Long-story-short of it: Psychopath creates a morbid 'untraceable' (via IP address etc.; also beneath the radar of FBI tech-savvy agents) website, where his premise is to gain worldwide viewership. The psychopath kidnaps victims, puts them in various torture-to-kill contraptions, where the catch 22 is: The more people who log onto the site, the FASTER the victim dies....

^ intriguing prospect, something different than the usual torture flicks we are accustomed to. The ending is a bit abrupt, but nonetheless the movie as a whole is pretty fluid, without the drab introductory scenes. You pretty much dive head-first into the movie plot within the opening credits, and that is a plus* for me! Too many previews/marketing ads prior to the 'Feature Presentation' often leaves me easily irritable towards a lagging-start to a movie.

The connection to the psychopath can never be guessed by the audience because we are not given information to work with ourselves. It's a tag-along movie where you pretty much learn alongside the characters. Definitely not a brilliantly written who-done-it, or twist-end movie like Identity or the Scream Trilogy, this movie still holds its own.

For sheer entertainment purposes, a simple movie-night-out, I would rate this a 7/10. Therefore, since it does not meet my 8/10 requirement, I will label this movie a: Rent-the-DVD film.

I walked away thinking:

• Not a waste of money for gas, food, time, and money
• Something different for a change
• Met expectations- therefore relatively satisfied
• Not a watch-it-again movie
• Great concept
• Not an involve-the-audience film
• Suspense was mild; my face wasn't buried in Frank's shoulder.

1. 7/10
2. Recommended for at-home viewing :)
3. Well-directed. Film doesn't lag.
   
   

Rocky's Prayer

Now I lay me down to sleep

beneath the blankets, buried deep

I say a prayer to thank You

for giving me not one, but two

owners who just took me home

gave me a bed to call my own.

Jackets, Boots, TShirts, Sweaters.

Can my life get any better?

They fill my bowl with lots of food

Clean up my mess when I have poo'd.

They give me water, plenty to drink

& bubble baths inside the sink.

I thank you Lord for my bliss.

But Can you please answer me this?

How do I thank them...& let them know

just how much I love them so?

-------

The Lord replies:

When they come home, wag your tail.

this is something that will never fail

to make them smile or have them see,

that you do love them unconditionally.

Put the sparkles in your eyes

Jump up now! Double your size!

Let them see that you're excited

they will know you are delighted!

Give them kisses, kiss their cheeks

it is your attention that they seek.

They love your charisma, your energy, your style.

You run around crazy, just like you're wild.

You're funny, silly, and quite cocky,

but all they'll say is,

"That's our Rocky!"

Dedicated to

Li'l Rocky Balboa Chicharon.

Superheroes & Villains

In memoriam to Heath Ledger, who played a villain, but lived as a hero. 1978-2008 He leaves behind his family, his friends, his fans, and most tragically, his 2 year-old daughter Matilda.
"His one joy was Matilda."

As everyone is aware, Heath Ledger portrays the Legendary role of The Joker, in the up-coming enterprise The Dark Knight. He dedicated himself to his roles and dove in deep to give the best to his craft. He is loved and will be missed. He leaves us with his inspiring works, as we can watch them again and again in remembrance of his greatness. May he rest in peace.

Superheroes and Villains..dance the tango.

If asked who my Superhero would be, I am quick to answer: My Dad. From the very tender age of three, I can still remember having a very fond attachment to my father- not that I don't have one with my mother, I am just truly, A Daddy's Girl. I remember wanting to emulate everything that my dad did. His engineer-mind influenced me to study how things work, to appreciate the complexities in life, and to find the solution that exists for ANY problem. One of my favourite memories with my father occurred when I was 4. We lived a less than 10-minute walk from my elementary school, and my dad would walk me to my JK Class in the afternoon. This afternoon was different, as it was one our first experiences in Canada with deep, deep snow. I remember my dad telling me to be careful or else I could get lost in it. Of course, being stubborn, I ventured onto the vast-field and immediately sank waist-deep into the snow. My dad came running after me and sank himself! I thought he would be very upset, especially since I had not listened to him. And now, here we stand, stuck. *remember, my Dad was in the country for over a year-- and at the time highly disliked Canada and it's weather.

Instead, we laughed together, he picked me up, and carried me all the way to school.

That is one moment - of many - that showed me just how much he loves me.

That is one of many millions of reasons that my Dad is my Hero. What I discovered throughout my life is that the world isn't all sunshine and rainbows. There are bad things, and bad people out there, and simply said, bad decisions to be made. I guess it all balances out- and that is why there are Heroes to save us from the evil Villains. I think if we lived in a world without so much negativity, we would not be able to truly appreciate the positive aspects of our lives-- in other words, our Heroes. So it is in this delicate dance of the tango, that my dad found himself saving me from all things bad, wrong, harmful, hurtful.

When I was younger, he'd protect me from getting bumps and bruises. As I got older he protected me from the pressures of growing up. He gave me a stable backbone and morales to live by. As I stand today, he gives me appreciation of all the sacrifices he makes, just because.

If asked to give my definition of a Hero, I would write:

Hero noun.

1. A person with outstanding, super-human strength; Can overcome anything. Example: "He has super-human strength to work the long, arduous hours that he does."
   
2. A person whose super-human strength equals that of self-sacrifice; having a heart of gold. Example: "He lives his day-to-day, a very hard way, solely for his family.
   
3. A person who balances dual responsibilities. Example: Hard-Worker by Day, Dedicated-Father at night.
   
4. A person of supreme intelligence. This attribute gives the hero increased mobility in all aspects of life. Example: "Whether doing his job or finishing his own basement/bathroom, intelligence is a quality, diverse in its uses."
   
5. My DAD.

???

Letting it all get to me... Feeling: Overwhelmed.

Everything that I've bottled up is eating at me.

I feel lost and confused. Stuck between a rock and a hard place.

Don't know what to do. Don't wanna burn my bridges.

Don't wanna put all my eggs in one basket.

But I can't go on with nerves like this...

So confused.

Eye for an Eye

How about a smile for a smile?

Feeling: confident

Eye for an eye, can be explained further by saying," You hit me, I hit you."

The first thing that comes to my mind is that episode of Full House, entitled A Pinch for A Pinch, where Michelle & Aaron fight over an animal cracker. It results in a pinch-fest, and Michelle learns that what Uncle says, does not ALWAYS go.

(classmate takes Michelle's animal cracker)

Michelle: Hey, you ate my elephant!

Aaron: It's in my tummy now, ha-ha-ha!

The good old adage, as Uncle Jesse explains it is justified because, "There's a real world out there, and these kids need to learn to stick up for themselves." Although I see his viewpoint, I think that this simple belief is the reason for much of the negative things in this world. In a world of opposites, a smile for a smile would be a better way of teaching a simple fact of life.

It brings out doing positive to get something positive in return. For example, think of a boss. If he reprimands his employees and focuses on their negatives, all he'll get back is sneers, dislike, and possibly less dedicated workers. It is a counter-productive approach, whereas my upheld smile for a smile alternative would make the situation go as follows:

A) Boss gives constructive criticism, and positive remarks to help boost & motivate his employees.

B) Said-Employee will feel appreciated, have a goal of improvement to work towards & dedicate him/herself to this higher standard

C) All involved get a piece of the cherry pie =)

Anyway, the reason I got into this was because I got to thinking about how positivity (positive thinking/acting) is relativity. Like attracts Like. So if you exude positive thoughts/actions..etc., it is only relative that positive things will result. Not only for yourself, but each other. If everyone looked out for everyone else in this way, the world would be a much better place. Therefore I will do my part, in my own little world, to do unto others, as I would like done unto me.

" You think of me, and I'll think of you... "

Friendships

....where to draw the line?
Feeling: EUREKA! Gleeful and S-M-R-T

friend, noun

1: a person you know well and regard with affection and trust; "he was my best friend at the university"

2: an associate who provides assistance; "he's a good ally in a fight"; "they were friends of the workers"

3: a person with whom you are acquainted; "I have trouble remembering the names of all my acquaintances"; "we are friends of the family"

I have no idea why, but recently, I've been looking <<< back a lot; looking back at people, old friends, familiar faces..and I can't help but wonder, where did I draw the line?

When we were younger, our friends, in all honesty, were those around us- and that equaled just about anybody! The person who sat next to you in class, someone you traded lunches with, sat on the school bus with on the way home, or any one who called you by name.Graduating in grade 8 was the first big transition of my life. I thought I would be forever miserable, leaving all my "friends" behind me. Then came the best thing- High School. I kept my 'old' friends and made 'new' ones. Like a pair of jeans, the old ones always tend to hold their sentimental value quite well. But, do note that high school was less static than elementary school EVER was-. The cliques formed, filled and fit each person to a tee, and people often found themselves moving fluidly between them. I always envisioned it like a grapevine (hence all the rumours heard along the way)...You always had your own little 'bunch' of friends, but always connected to other bunches, through some common thread--Be it through music, same classes, extracurricular activities or whatever.

Then, high school came and went. Here today- gone tomorrow. Sadly, as I look back, so did a lot of the relationships that I truly cherished, and really do miss. I will leave all names anonymous, but believe me, there are too many to even list. University years have now also come and gone, and again we are all at different points in our lives. Different destinations have caused us to go different ways, but that has never deterred my most cherished of friendships. Now, I sit here to analyze those that fell through the cracks. And why.

So,Here is my list of reasons/reflections on those friendships that were Great. Fabulous. Incredible. Loving, but simply, didn't stand the test of time.

1. The Teeny-Tinies aka Red Flags. Little incidents, that grew worse, just like chicken pox! Think of it as one of those small cuts that leave a Very Ugly Scar. Another way to make this sound more familiar is to think of those friendships that you had, that paralleled an on-again, off-again relationship. It was always over a stupid 'break-up" but you always got back together for the sheer heck of it. Get the picture?
   
2. No time. When I say that I don't mean the "Sorry, I've been so busy" friends. I mean, No Time for BS friendships. Those friendships that become more of an annoyance than anything. My Favourite Example: A used car that you keep for sentimental reasons, but you know that things will only get worse & cost you much more in the end.


3. ..Was blind, but now I see.. Sometimes, love blinds us. And with friends, this is lethal. Reason-being, unlike boyfriends, we know that friends are a constant. Technically, a second-family. Therefore, when you're blinded by this kind of love, you see past all the nay-sayers and stick with it. BUT something happens, and you suddenly awaken to the reality of it all.


4. Procrastination aka Sometime. Ever have those encounters that result in the common saying of, "We should really get together (again) sometime?" If so, you may or may not have followed through with that comment. But the odds are high that you did not. For whatever reason, _____fill in list of reasons/excuses here___ that sometime, never came. Even though it may not have been a conscious procrastination, too much time has passed for it to stay in your recent memory, and is now filed in the call-back file.
   
5. First-name-basis? Facebook has highlighted this point more than ever. One day, look at your list. Pick people at random, and try to mention/name personal things about them. For example, their favourite color/band or most-recent significant other. Despite the fact that you shared the best memories of your life with this person, you are now falling into the acquaintance category (see definition above). Also Known As, first-name-basis-only. Sure, you know that they pee'd their pants in grade 4 infront of the whole class, but you are now oblivious to their day-to-day, or even the events/happenings of the past year.


6. Pop goes the weasel! Ever have those 'friends' who randomly decide to call, or write on your wall? Don't get me wrong, I LOVE hearing from old friends but that is not what gripes me. I am really talking about those people that message you to say "Happy Birthday/Hello," make a Big Hoopla about the fact that it's been 'so-long,' then you are left to never hear from them again? I call it premature fireworks. Reason being, it's a BIG FIRESHOW, full of promise and intent, that leaves you in the dark, with lots of smoke.
   
7. Night at the Roxbury Syndrome: Again, Facebook is an accomplice. You know how this one goes. You go to a club for any given reason, a friend of yours brings along another, who becomes your fight-off-the-nasties, partner in crime. Or simply, you two instantly hit it off, having an incredible dance-off on the dance floor, laughing at the idiocy, forming an instant bond. Or that is what we are left to think. Time goes by (days/weeks), and all that can really be remembered from that night is just how you got home!


8. Theirs, not yours. Another form of the acquaintance. This kind of friend is a person that you are completely cool with. You have hung out at different places, for different reasons, and are perfectly comfortable with their presence, and even talking/laughing with them whenever you meet again. But there is a catch. They are the friend, of a friend of yours. In the end, you do know that if you and your friend ever had a falling out, that this Friend would go right along with them.


9. Tragic Love Story reminiscent of the Was Blind..But Now I See friendships, the Tragic Love Story friendship is the kind that seemed so perfect, so perfect that it seemed destined to last forever. *See Example A La Britney Spears & Justin Timberlake). TLS Friendships are the most heart-breaking because they involve those friendships that became a piece of your heart. The 'we once were' memories. For whatever reason, TLS Friendships are one of the ONLY categories that leave you with a sense of hope. There is -always- a chance for reconciliation no matter the circumstances. From embers to a flame-kind-of-thing ;)


10. The-Links-That-Bond vs. the Ties that Bind.---This friendship is not to be mistaken as any of the above acquaintances. The Links-That-Bond Friendships can really become a true-found friendship. TLTBs are only on the list because they are a different alternative to the theirs-not-yours category. TLTBs are links such as, "my boyfriend's best friend's girlfriend" OR "my girlfriend's sister's boyfriend." It's not the fact that you spent so much time with this person, rather the quality time. You are often more likely to have done some of the best things together; trips, weekend-get aways, weekly-rendezvous'. Links that Bond is an acquaintance-ship that has the most potential for true friendship, but as with All The Above, something BREAKS that link, and the bond too is broken. Odd circumstances arise and things simply get awkward.

This re-evaluation of my friendships has caused me to value the real ones much more. I see it like having a Real Designer Item Versus having a Designer Knock-Off. When it comes down to it, when you have a knock-off, no matter how real it appears to be, is just a name. There is no greater satisfaction than being able to say, This is Real. & That Applies to EVERYTHING.

So, in dedication to, and honourable-mention for my

REAL F R I E N D S, I LOVE YOU! XOXO!

Insomniac

Again, just one of those sleepless nights...

Feeling: ..like an Insomniac

It's one of those nights where I can't sleep. So the post for the 19th is really early. Frank's here. Passed out, with Rocky . I'm quite pleased with myself, and the idea to add in one of my favourite internet inventions: the emoticon. I have a zillion of them, and what better way to keep them portable than to add them to my blog?! Plus, they're completely adorable, despite the nay-sayers that find them annoying, as I add them in order to Express Myself ! It's reminiscent of those children's storybooks,no?

Haha. Please excuse the randomness, as it is 2AM! Hence, the logistical aspect of this blog. It is serving its purpose well. Quite well in fact, otherwise I would probably be sitting up watching a show on tv, or filling my head with the millions upon millions of advertisements that we are bombarded with. EXCEPT, this early in the morning, there is the great abundance of the well-loved Infomercials.

In all honesty, I never quite minded them, seeing I am an avid "As Seen on TV" Showcase-store shopper. I remember products like the paint-stick, Jack LaLaine & his juicer, or Orange Glo- before its retail-wide release. This was back in my elementary/high school days, when time actually existed. Now you have to go searching for time, as it comes and goes in the blink of an eye!But what I really liked to watch this early in the morning--during what I like to call my Wonder Years-- was the musical infomercials from TimeLife Music.

Compilations from the Greatest Eras of Music, brought me back to my childhood, listening to music as we did our weekend-clean up, or those late-night karaoke nights! Frank Sinatra, Dean Martin, Connie Francis, Chicago, The Temptations, Earth Wind and Fire...and don't forget, the best era, THE EIGHTIES! (sorry I'm biased, I'm an 86er.)

Music that imprinted themselves in the lives and memories of billions, as they are still recognized today through their use in movies, commercials, modern-day covers, and imitations. Those songs, and that kind of music came from a time much different than today. That's why they have such an influence. They're timeless. They're classic.

But nevermind my rambling-on. I need to stop, before I write a 12-page essay on my nostalgia.

Gnite!

Old Skool

Memories...from the corners of my mind.


Feeling: Like a kid again...

Whenever Frank and I & Stuart and Danielle are together, we can't help but reminisce our Old Skool Boniface days. It's pretty crazy that the 4 of us are still couples, because we all got our start in grade 8. All the history, the funny stories, things that seemed to be so important, are now funny things we did as kids.

All the:

• silly rumours
• love triangles
• groups/cliques
• spin the bottle games
• first kisses
• first boyfriend/girlfriends
• dances

Sometimes I forget how many years it has been since elementary, because I am still surrounded by those that I graduated with. For others, elementary was a million years ago, as they've moved on to different friends, people and experiences all together. For me, I feel quite blessed to have this special circumstance. Not only do I have my elementary school crush as my long-term relationship, but I have the very people who were there along the way.

It's fun when we're together, because we can spark each other's memories and converse about things that only we would remember. We confirm each other's memories and even bring out some new information that we didn't know before!

All I know is that I am living a very blessed life. And this one aspect of it that I truly cherish. Xoxo!

Save Her from Herself

Britney Spears
The evolution of...

Feeling: Contemplative

In honour of one of the most influential artists of our time- I dedicate this post, in self reflection, to Britney Spears.

Britney Spears- Mona Lisa

Ladies and Gentlemen, I've got a little story to tell
About Mona Lisa, and how she suddenly fell.
See everyone knew her, they knew her oh so well.
Now I am taking over, to release her from her spell.

She's unforgettable
She was a legend though
It's kind of pitiful that she's gone
It's kind of incredible she's so unpredictable
It's time to let her go, cause she's gone, cause she's gone, cause she's gone.

She was taken under, drowning in her sea
Running like an angel, she was crying but could not see
Now see everybody's watching, as she starts to fall......

...
As odd as it may seem, I parallel with the pop princess.

"Knowing your calling from a young age, having that great drive, that intense fire and motivation; the ambition to push yourself harder for something greater & greater."

That is why I am completely convinced that she is suffering from the same thing I did; a complete burn-out. She lived her life to perform, for the spotlight, the stage. Whereas I had completely dedicated myself to books, grades, awards-- academics.

Things were going very well for her, but 2001 would be the year that would unravel her spirits. The break-up from her first love, Justin, proved to be more trying than anyone could imagine. At first, she rebounded with In the Zone. But you could clearly see that her motivation was counter-productive. Then came the 55 hour marriage, the marriage to Federline, the kids, the partying, living a life that was not truly fulfilling.

*She found herself at a time in her life where the world would not stop to let you breathe. It was always an On-the-go kind of lifestyle. And she became overwhelmed. Too high to let it all go down, she rolled with the punches and pushed forward. Doing things that satisfied her need of reassurance. She bit off more than she could chew. Everything came too fast, too suddenly- with no break inbetween. The pressures, the stress, no time to deal with the negative. Rather, let it pile up under that rug in the corner.

Smiles on the outside, torn within. But still, she charges on. It is the motivation that drives her. The perfectionist within. Wanting you to keep going. Living like this keeps a constant in her life. Really, all that she's ever known.

I just hope that everyone realizes that she needs to be saved, & the only person that can save Britney, is Britney..

How do I know?

I saved me from myself. I just hope Britney can do the same.

Itsy

Bitsy Post
Nothing much to say today.
Feeling: Tired.

Lots to learn in so little time. This position is not for amateurs. Paperwork is an understatement. Smiling is a constant- which helps the day go by faster. Co-workers are awesome. Loving the responsibility. Location is prime. Bright lights. Early mornings. Later evenings. Embracing the commitment. Re-telling the day's stories. New experiences. Different atmosphere. Structured but relaxed. Love songs are now anthems. Words to live by. Learning by doing is best. Perfectionism is on o/d. Nervous. Excited. Happy. Anxious. Counting down til the 90th day. Download in progress. Waiting for that 100% Complete. Fearful of fateful repetition of '07. Fingers Crossed. Throwing salt over my shoulder. Giving it my all. Working towards a greater goal. Seeing the BIG PICTURE. Currency is more than just money.

Viewing my life with a periscope.

Eyelids heavy. Wanting to burrow beneath my covers. Time to reboot, re-energize. Goodnight!!

Having my cake

and eating it too!

Mood: Ecstatic
Never realized how much I could possibly love a job. I've had my share of experiences, and except for my teaching experiences, I can't say that I've loved my previous jobs. Enjoyed them. Committed to them. Put in 180%..yes, but loved<3?? No.

Here, my brain in soaking in new ways of doing things (administration/sales), while giving me a completely different experience. It's hard to explain, but I absolutely tasty-delight (See Google.ca and reference Tasty Delight ice cream, as seen on Sex and the City) in the face that I am working in an office-setting, but working WITH people.

Not isolated within a cubicle, left in solitude, as a li'l worker monkey.

My manicured hands are now side-lining as hand-models. my eyes are constantly blinded by the absolutely stunning custom-made engagement rings that many-a-he has chosen for she. I pass on my enthusiasm to the prospective fiance, as he prepares to leave with the one piece of jewellery that will change the rest of his life! General House-keeping duties initiate my Alice-in-Wonderland dream sequence. I hum and sing and la-la-la away to all of the sappy love songs...old and new, pretty much Whistling as I Work, like the Seven Dwarfs, which for here-sake we will make Eight, & I'll be Sappy.. I go into Disney-Princesses overload as I hum and sing "I'm Wishing,"-Snow White & "So This is Love," -Cinderella, to myself/in my head. The Icons that epitomize and vocalize the era of Classic Love, + song.. **D/L Recommended.

P.S. Special Mention/Dedication goes out to the Queen of All Sap- Melissa C

I think I will leave it at that. As I am drowning in my own sap.

I can't wait 'til the day the finished ring is His, and the very moment he gives Me Forever.