Mood Quote:OCT72010

Mood Quote:OCT72010
"Maybe the best any of us can do is not quit, play the hand we've been given and accessorize the outfit we've got." - Carrie

31 March 2010

Robert De Niro

He can be a typical mafioso -as in The Godfather, a lunatic -as in The Taxi Driver, a stoic and humble father -as in A Bronx Tale, a protective and overbearing father -as in Meet The Parents, OR a hilarious combination of the above, as in Analyze This/That!

He's one of those people whose intensity can be felt in any role he fills. He's one of the best actor's of his time. He's classic, like a Vintage Caddy. He'll never go out of style -just look at his cover with 50 Cent; a promo for their 2008 flick "Righteous Kill" with fellow hottie, Al Pacino.

For all the Italian fathers who remind me of De Niro, and make me swoon...this one goes out to you!

I Owe U....An Apology

For effective communication, have you ever heard of using "I" instead of "You"

Here is a self-evaluative activity that will help you brush up on your "I" language when communicating with other people, especially in argumentative situations. Also, it will help you differentiate between evaluative and descriptive language.

Instructions: For each of the following evaluative "you" statements, write an "I" statement in its' place. Include a description of the observed behaviour and a brief account of your reaction to it or feeling about it.

  • You-statement: You are so lazy.
  • I-statement: I get frustrated when you don't do your share of the cleaning around the house.

See if you can find I-statements for the following. This exercise is beneficial especially for those in a relationship, where communication is key!

  1. "You only want things your own way."
  2. "You drink like a fish."
  3. "You always hog the TV."
  4. "You don't care about my needs."
  5. "You are always late."
  6. "You never pull your own weight."
  7. "You are always reading the newspaper when I want to talk."
  8. "You drive like a maniac."
  9. "Why can't you listen to me."


Dirty Laundry

Not one to air out my dirty laundry..but today I came to the realization that despite all of my efforts, I DO have a lot of clothes! It's a spring-cleaning ritual of mine to give away-donate clothes that I will no longer nor have worn in the past year or so, to make more room in my closet.

Today I was quite proud of the appearance of my closet and drawers, and said to myself, "Wow, I've actually reduced my clothes enough to fit in half my closet and 6 drawers!" ......since I've reduced my closet space because of this contraption.

Then, I realize that I have a ton of laundry to do (in the basement) AND accumulated in a little corner of my room!

I guess I will be spending some time this long weekend to wash and further reduce my wardrobe!

29 March 2010

When Will It Be My Turn

I feel like I'm in a line of 'awaiting uncertainty' and am forever anticipating my turn get an answer from this burning question, "When will it be MY turn?"

I'm a check box person. I make lists - and on those lists, are items meant to be checked off; not to be left blank, which is my head, when people ask, "so what are you up to?"

I unravel my story to them, and to my horror, realize that I am not afraid of what they will think of me, rather, what I am left with - myself.

I feel like I'm in a revolving door and keep going around and around.

When will it be my turn.

I just want that piece of paper.....waiting to exhale.

27 March 2010

Going Away Present

Old man winter is on his way out, but he's kind enough not to leave without saying a proper goodbye...he left me a going away present - a cold. For one to know me, you will know that I am rarely ever sick - with anything!

I have a cold right now, but compared to other people I see, who suffer a cold much worse than I, I am still grateful that my immune system does not completely give way for me to be in such a weak state.

Although, my nose is sore. I think I'm close to finishing a box of tissues in one day. That's a record for me! Well, rather than type out my woes, I'm going to go downstairs and make myself my non-alcoholic night cap, because Lord knows I have never really slept...and the sun is coming up as I type.

Prized Possession

(This pic is taken from an antique store)

One thing I will never give away is my (hand-me-down) Vintage-Barbie Alarm Clock Radio. It's a classic barbie look, one that doesn't exist nowadays. Add on the vintage chevy and it's a girl's fantasy!

I love the how these retro colour combos still work today - and the little technical bits of this clock are so cute!

  1. Each wheel rim serves a purpose, the left serves as the volume, and the right, as the radio tuner.
  2. The wheel in barbie's hands actually turns...little details like this, I love!
  3. The hood of the car opens to reveal the time set, alarm buttons.
  4. **for 'snooze' you press down on the hood of the car...!
  5. The vacant 'passenger seat' doubles as a spot for my beloved blackberry!
Have a favourite possession??

26 March 2010

Same Hill Different Day

I stumbled upon a website....and subsequently, Paul Octavious's Same Hill Different Day.

Below is an excerpt from his website:

For the past 2 years I have visited a beautiful mound of earth that I have come to call "the hill." Each time I have come to the hill a new story is told to me as if the hill is my stage and the locals are the actors in this daily play.


Click @ the link above to view his complete set of photos taken throughout the 2 year period. Pictures are worth a 1000 words....these are worth a million!

Filed Beach Bags

You know summer is on its way when products like this hit the shelves! This bag is a must-have if you're anything like me - I bring my whole life with me when I leave, and there's no exception even if all I'm going to be doing is laying around on a beach wearing nothing but my bikini and sunscreen!

I'm a 'pack-twice-cause-you-leave-once' type of person. I realized this simple fact when I started wearing hobos (and other large bags). I noticed it even more when I go away to go up north to the trailor. I couldn't deny it when went to the Philippines in December and had to pack for Frank and myself!!!

This bag is perfect for my Type A personality - it's compartmentalized - utter perfection for a person who checks twice, unpacks and repacks.... (an annoying trait, according to Frank)

If you want to know more about this bag, click/order here!

25 March 2010

The Blind Side-d: Sandra Bullock

A fourth woman has come out of hiding and admitting to an affair with Jesse James a.k.a. Tiger Woods' Saviour.

Sandra Bullock explained her marriage to Jesse James Sunday on the last Oscar edition of The Barbara Walters Special.

When Barbara asked her, "How does he protect you?" Sandra answered, "Not once asking me to be anything other than what I am." Sandra went on to say that her work got better because she could be both fearful and braver knowing she had him to go home to. When Sandra won the Best Actress award, you could see the love Jesse has for her in his teary eyes.

Apparently, those were crocodile tears and he's full of it. As the man behind the mask is being revealed in the media, everyone is on Sandra's side. She should be celebrate her Oscar win for Blind Side, not grieve a marriage, now torn by being blind-sided.

I despise people like him.

You take and take and take....and what's funny, is that he thought he'd never get caught.

5 years of marriage = A sham.

She'll come out of this on top, and she already proves how smart she is....they signed a pre-nup prior to their 2005 nuptials AND she kept her LA house and didn't sell it.

For now, she needs her time to think everything through...what to do, and how to do it.

Once a cheater, always a cheater. Remember that.

Hello, I'm Elmo, and You Are?

Here's an email FWD that I got a little while ago that I want to share with you:


EVERYONE has a personality of a cartoon character. Have you ever asked yourself what cartoon character do you most resemble?A group of investigators got together and analyzed the personalities of well known and modern cartoon characters. The information that was gathered was made into this test.

Answer all the questions (only 10) with what describes you best, add up all your Points (which are next to the answer that you choose) at the end and look for your results.

1. Which one of the following describes the perfect date?
a) Candlelight dinner (4 pts.)
b) Fun/Theme Park (2 pts.)
c) Painting in the park (5 pts)
d) Rock concert (1 pt.)
e) Going to the movies (3 pts.)

2. What is your favorite type of music?
a) Rock and Roll (2 pts.)
b) Alternative (1 pt..)
c) Soft Rock (4 pts.)
d) Country (5 pts )
e) Pop (3 pts.)

3. What type of movies do you prefer?
a) Comedy (2 pts.)
b) Horror (1 pt.)
c) Musical (3 pts.)
d) Romance (4 pts.)
e) Documentary (5 pts.)

4. Which one of these occupations would you choose if you only could choose one of these?
a) Waiter (4 pts.)
b) Professional Sports Player (5 pts.)
c) Teacher (3 pts.)
d) Police (2 pts.)
e) Cashier (1 pt)

5 What do you do with your spare time?
a) Exercise (5 pts.)
b) Read (4 pts.)
c) Watch television (2 pts..)
d) Listen to music (1 pt.)
e) Sleep (3 pts.)

6. Which one of the following colors do you like best?
a) Yellow (1 pt.)
b) White (5 pts.)
c) Sky Blue (3 pts)
d) Dark Blue(2 pts.)
e) Red (4 pts.)

7. What do you prefer to eat?
a) Snow (3 pts.)
b) Pizza (2 pts.)
c) Sushi (1 pt.)
d) Pasta (4 pts.)
e) Salad (5 pts.)

8. What is your favorite holiday ?
a) Halloween(1 pt.)
b) Christmas(3 pts.)
c) New Year (2 pts.)
d) Valentine's Day(4 pts.)
e) Thanksgiving(5 p ts.)

9. If you could go to one of these places which one would it be?
a) Paris (4 pts)
b) Spain (5 pts)
c) Las Vegas (1 pt)
d) Hawaii (4 pts)
e) Hollywood (3 pts)

10. With which of the following would you prefer to spend time with?
a) Someone smart (5 pts.)
b) Someone attractive (2 pts.)
c) Someone who likes to Party (1 pt.)
d) Someone who always has fun (3 pts.)
e) Someone very sentimental (4 pts.)

Now add up your points and find out the answer you have been waiting for!
Very interesting to see 'who' your friends are!

(10-16 points) You are Garfield :You are very comfortable, easy going, and you definitely know how to have fun but sometimes you take it to an extreme. You always know what you are doing and you are always in control of your life. Others may not see things as you do, but that doesn't mean that you always have to do what is right. Try to remember, your happy spirit may hurt you or others.

(17-23 points) You are Snoopy:You are fun; you are very cool and popular. You always know what's in and you ' re never out of style , you are good at knowing how to satisfy everyon e else. You have probably disappeared for a few days more than once but you always come home with the family values that you learned Being married and having children are important to you, but only after you have had your share of fun times

(24-28 points) You are Elmo:You have lots of friends and you are also popular, always willing to give advice and help out a person in need. You are very optimistic and you always see the bright side of things. Some good advice:try not to be too much of a dreamer. Dreaming too big could cause many conflicts in your life.

(29-35 points) You are Sponge Bob Square Pants. You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never wants to lose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life is a journey, it's funny and calm for the most part Stay away from traitors and jealous people and you will be stress free...

(36-43 points) You are Charlie Brown:You are tender, you fall in love quickly but you are also very serious about all relationships. You are a family person. You call your Mom every Sunday. You have many friends and may occasionally forget a few Birthdays. Don't let your passion confuse you with reality.

(44-50 points ) You are Dexter:You are smart and definitely a thinker... Every situation is fronted with a plan.. You have a brilliant mind. You demonstrate very strong family principles. You maintain a stable routine but never ignore a bad situation when it comes. Try to do less over thinking every once in a while to spice things up a bit with spontaneity!

People say I laugh like Elmo.


I shake like him too when I laugh

...just a side note.

Can You Keep The Secret?

Can you keep the secret?
I've been a preacher, not a practicer, of the secret, in my own life. I've let myself get carried away by negative thoughts, feelings, and emotions and have pushed away the one thing that I was working towards - for myself.
I've been pushed down too many times and let myself drown beneath the overwhelming anxiety that comes with being such a perfectionist. Perfection is not about seeking perfection in others, rather, just myself.
I've come to see that seeking perfection is like looking for a unicorn....chasing something imaginative, that never truly exists. True perfection is flawed.
I have much to be thankful for in my 24 years, and my situation is the one flaw that exists, for me. Others, it's their love life, their family life, their job, work, career....
I'm keeping the secret - in my head, knowing that one day, I will actualize all that I dream.
This is a secret I can's giving me positive motivation to keep on keepin' on.
Or as I like to put it: Think It. Dream It. Have It.

Sex and Another City: Abu Dhabi

Source: The Associated Press
Sex in a new city: Carrie & pals go to Abu Dhabi
By DAVID GERMAIN (AP) – 2 days ago
LAS VEGAS — Sarah Jessica Parker and her Manhattan gal pals are taking their sexy ways to a new city.
"Sex and the City 2," due in theaters May 27, sends Parker, Kim Cattrall, Kristin Davis and Cynthia Nixon on a trip to the Middle East as they visit Abu Dhabi.
While the sequel allows Parker's Carrie Bradshaw a chance to spend quality time with her chic posse, it also gave the actresses more opportunity to hang together than they've had before.
"This is probably the most time the characters have ever spent together," Parker said in an interview at last week's ShoWest convention for theater owners, where distributor Warner Bros. premiered a new "Sex and the City 2" trailer.
"Simultaneously, it was the first time that the four actors left the country, lived together, worked together for almost eight weeks solid — and when I say lived together, I mean breakfast, lunch and dinner together every single night," Parker continued. "We were removed from family and friends, and we've never had that kind of time together, because we always went home to friends and family and children and husbands and wives. It is the most fun and the hardest we've ever worked together."
The foursome needed to work hard to top the first big-screen spinoff of the HBO series, which far exceeded industry expectations two years ago with a $56.8 million opening weekend. The movie went on to top $150 million at the box office.
"Sex and the City 2" reunites Carrie and company with the key men in their lives, including Big (Chris Noth), whom Carrie married in the first movie.
The sequel has Cattrall's Samantha Jones taking her friends along to Abu Dhabi, where her movie star ex has shot an action film. The trailer reveals that Carrie finds temptation in the desert when she runs into her own ex from the TV show, Aidan (John Corbett).
"We bump into each other halfway around the world?" Carrie muses. "That means something."
The trailer also sets up crises for Carrie's friends, Samantha struggling to stay youthful, Davis' Charlotte York feeling overwhelmed by her children, Nixon's Miranda Hobbes wishing for time away from work to be a stay-at-home mom.
While much of the film takes place in Manhattan, the Middle East action presents a culture clash as the four fashionistas maneuver through a land steeped in tradition regarding the behavior and appearance of women.
"How do you sort of live up to the idea of fashion being a component of this particular franchise and be in a culture that requires you to be covered, and how to be sexy or lack a sort of chaste quality?" Parker said.
Michael Patrick King, who wrote and directed both movies and was executive producer on the TV show, said the big question people asked before the first movie came out was whether or not Carrie and Big got married.
"So we move from marriage to the next logical place in people's minds, is she having a baby?" said King, who acknowledges that "it's one of the thoughts of the movie" but will not answer for sure. "For me, I always like to do something that's individualistic and unique for Carrie Bradshaw, since she is one of a kind."

Aidan IS In the Sex and the City Sequel!!

Okay, let's try this again

Aidan has confirmed on Ellen DeGeneres' show - airdate March 31 - that he will be in the sequel! He admitted that he had to lie about being in the sequel, by saying that the picture taken of him in Morrocco was 'old.'

He's let the cat out of the bag because he is going to be in a new trailer for the movie.


I hope there's more meat to this....and it's not just a turn-around-and-look-I-have-a-baby-named-Tate cameo.

Oh Aidan!

Shopping At Sephora

Thanks to my sister - for my birthday a few weeks ago - she gave me a $100 gift card to Sephora....knowing very well that I walk past that store because of 'sticker shock.'

One thing about me and make up - the most expensive make up I have is MAC, most of which I have accumulated through sample bags and my own personal collection. The rest consist of 'drug store brands' such as Revlon, CG, and Rimmel.

Here's what I got with her generous gift! (also, signing up for Sephora's Beauty Insider card, I got a Birthday Gift!)

Here is an amazing shadow-gloss-brush combination set from Sephora, with 5 different looks to play with
  1. Dinner in Paris
  2. Coffee in New York
  3. Shopping in Milan
  4. Tango in Buenos Aires
  5. Clubbing in Tokyo
*Bonus: Each set pops out from the main case for a mini to-go palette!

I've gone through my share of last set came from Danier, and when I purchased them, they felt quite soft to me, resembling the feel my Mary Kay brushes once had. I was wrong, but they'll do...and my Mary Kay brushes have been working alongside Danier's in order for me to save money and not buy brushes, when some of that money can go towards gas or 'savings'.... Here comes Sephora's Slim Essentials set. Exactly the brushes I use daily, all in one compact case. One selling point, in addition to the EXTREMELY soft, high-quality bristels, the covered lip brush. Most lip brushes come with that plastic slide...whereas this one comes with a clicky cover. Oh how the simplest things amuse me.
Last but definitely not least, NARS blush in Orgasm. As I am the walking encyclopedia of useless information, let me inform you that the reason why we 'blush' is that the flow of blood to our cheeks sends out a primal signal to our male suitors that we're 'interested'

So when a guy makes you blush...according to NARS, that orgasm?

Anyway, this product is the whole reason why she got me the gift card in the first place. A friend of hers has been wearing this blush, and everytime I see her in pictures, I always admire how her blush looks.

I've improvised my own blush technique with a mixed blush palette and MAC's shimmer pressed powder.

I'm excited to wear the blush that comes infused with shimmer...yayyy!

Thanks to my sister who knows how to spoil her already spoiled younger sister. You always give me the best presents...not only because they're wickedly useful and totally me, but because you actually took the time to think of gift, not shop, pick and pay. <3>

Circle of Trust

Frank gave me a ring like this -not real obviously, a few years ago. I chose it because it is exactly the ring that Brian Littrell from the Backstreet Boys gave his fiancee Leighanne ages ago. I also loved the yellow stone because it resembles the fact that our relationship grew out of our very cherished friendship; one that we cherished so much that we almost didn't start dating in case it would ruin what we had if things didn't work out. Also, the two trillons on the side, represent the 2 years that we were in a -it's complicated- situation.

I usually only wear this ring on special occasions, but since I have seemingly misplaced my other ring (this is the longest I've misplaced it for...) my ring finger has felt awkward without a ring on it.

Here's to the ring that symbolizes so much.

Whenever I look at it, I smile. Simply because I know that wherever I am, near or far, he'll always be by my side.

24 March 2010

Spoil Me Rotten: YSL Tribtoo

My (one day) Wedding Shoes!!!!

Everything Thus Far

I'm 24. A year to go until I have officially circled the sun for a quarter of a century. Here's my 2 cents, (or should I say 25 cents) on everything in my life, thus far.

I'm still in the process of completing my psychology degree at York. If you would have asked me when I graduated high school in 2004 where I would be in 2010, I would have answered, "teaching." Life has thrown me a few curveballs and the answer I can provide you, now, as to where I am is: 'Here.'

Confused? Don't be. What I mean by 'here,' is that I am in the here and now. I'm doing what I have to do now, to get me to my tomorrows. To further explain, I've spent the past 6 years of my life looking back, year after year, of my list of coulda, woulda, shoulda's. I've spent the last 6 years looking forward, to where I wanna be, where I could be, where I should be.

So I've decided, rather than hold onto my past like an anchor, or get swept away by dreams of the future, I have to stay in the here and now - for a better tomorrow.

I've been holding onto this 'big apple' dream. No, not what you think -not a New York State of Mind, rather my dream to become a teacher. So many reasons why this dream may remain merely a figment of my imagination but I can't stop myself from trying. It means too much to just let it go now.

As for the other aspects of my life, I am completely happy. I am still with my elementary-school sweetheart (we started dating in 2000) and he couldn't be more than perfect. Selfishly, I think God put him on this earth for me; he makes me smile when I don't want to, pulls laughs out of me even if it's like pulling teeth, and gives me all the reasons in the world to be thankful.

One such reason, walks on four legs. We happily walk, chase, play tug o' war, and completely spoil our fur baby chihuahua -Rocky. Don't let the breed fool you, he's 10lbs of Mexican hot sauce all rolled into one firecracker of an animal. He's rambunctious, not yappy. He loves attention, yet wants space and will walk himself out of a noisy room. Last Christmas he got more presents than my cousin's husband! This little guy is -my hearbeat at my feet.

The other wonderful people who make my life shine are my family and friends. These very select people have supported me through my 24 years. Through my many Ups and recent Downs... I can't imagine where I'd be without their 'love & support.' Cliche as it sounds, I have so much of both that I can probably jar them up, sell 'em, and make a whole bunch of people just as happy and well-loved as I am.

If I were to tell you where I wanted to be at this age here's my list:

  • teaching (certified, supplying, or landed a ft permanent position)
  • probably engaged, looking for a house
  • having evening dates with my girls, doing dinner sushi dates in the middle of the week

But here is where I am now:

  • happy
  • in love
  • well-loved.
If there's anything that I could say as a moral of the story:

Think It. Dream It. Have It.

As long as you stay true to your heart & let your heart do the wishing, while your head does the work, everything is possible.

22 March 2010

Jilliann Espada 101

Welcome to Homeroom this Monday, March 22, 2010.

Jilliann Espada 101

is now in session.
  1. My birthday is March 1 1986 (making me a newbie 24yo) making me a {1} in numerology
  2. My birthstone is aquamarine & my astrological sign is Pisces.
  3. I have two sisters
  4. I have 2 nieces -twins-
  5. My favourite colour has changed and evolved as I aged in the following order: blue, green, babyblue, pink (hot pink, fuschia, any shade).
  6. I was born in the Philippines, and as of this past December, have visited twice in my life time.
  7. I've had the following cars in this order: Toyota Tercel, Toyota Paseo, VW Golf, Audi a4 (current)
  8. I was the captain of my elementary school girls' volleyball team
  9. My favourite dessert in the world is a banana-chocolate crepe
  10. I have a Chihuahua who is Mexican -literally- he was born in Mexico and I have his paperwork in Spanish.
  11. I have a boyfriend -practically my husband lol- who is Italian, by heritage, not by birth. I can read/write basic Italian - he cannot.
  12. The first movie I can remember watching and really understanding is E.T. I wanted my own E.T. to have as a friend.
  13. When I was 3/4 my sisters & cousins were die-hard New Kids on the Block fans...being the youngest, they took the rest, and left me with Jon (who has recently come out as being gay)
  14. The first thing I asked my mom when I came home from my first day of Junior Kindergarten was 'Mom, can I have a boyfriend?'
  15. My first crush in life was Jesse Katsopoulos from Full House
  16. My first real-life crush was a boy named Timothy (JK)
  17. My best friend and I became friends after I moved to a new school, and her grandparents watched me in the mornings (as my parents when to work)
  18. When we were small, we used rip the little tinsels off of christmas garland, but them in a zip-lock bag, fill it with water -in an attempt to make our own snowglobes.
  19. In Senior Kindergarten (my current boyfriend, then, a tiny little 5yo rascal) through a brick at my head because I wouldn't share a Fisher Price Hospital with him - he shoved me!
  20. I can make a 'crack'ing sound -similar to when you crack your knuckles- with my left ankle
  21. *I love my soul-mate Melissa* (this one's for you my dedicated reader!)
  22. ^ as per one of my fave Sex and the City quotes, "Don't laugh at me... but maybe we could be each others soul mates. And then we could just let men be just these great nice guys to have fun with."
  23. After Frank gave me a 'to keep your finger warm until the real thing' ring in 2002, I've been wearing one of the 3 rings he gave me on my ring finger....until the real thing.
  24. I'm actually looking forward to this coming season's The Bachelorette: Ali Fedowski
  25. I hate shoes that require wearing socks.... with the exception of some of my fave boots.
  26. I'm a person that detests going to Casinos, but is dying to go to Las Vegas -not for the casinos-
  27. My fave type of sushi is salmon, salmon sashimi, and spicy salmon roll
  28. I love leopard print, but have managed not to become one of those people that resemble Peggy Bundy. I have a leopard skin on my blackberry, and own Betsey Johnson's luggage in Animal Instinct.
  29. In my elementary and high school years I was an A student. Oh how those were the good ol' days
  30. In high school, after early dismissals, I used to have my girls over and make fried rice for them
  31. I'm the type of person that you can throw into any store and I can a) find something to buy or b) choose the most expensive thing without seeing the price tag. Champagne taste, beer money.
  32. As soon as I get into my car, I lock the doors. Whenever I reach home, I don't exit my car until everything is in-hand, along with my house key already pulled out.
  33. I can swim but not very well. I don't drown or anything, but I tire easily and save myself by floating on my back or grabbing onto the side of the pool.....or another person.
  34. Although I have a small dog -Rocky- my chihuahua, I hope to have a German Shepherd one day and name him Diesel
  35. I can't sleep earlier than 12pm, that is unless I am completely drained which is few and far between
  36. I have to eat Reese Peanut Butter Cups with milk
  37. My favourite pear is the Abate Pear
  38. If I was on a deserted island and could only bring one thing with me, it would be Rocky. I would live the rest of my days with Rocky like Will Smith did in I am Legend.....*I'd bring Frank but I'm sure he would not qualify as a 'thing.'
  39. When I was little, I didn't listen to my mom about not jumping up and down after eating a bowl of jello - which resulted in me throwing up a nice orange puddle on the kitchen floor
  40. The two baby names that I absolutely adore are 'Alessandro' and 'Micaela'
  41. Alessandro - Alexander the Great. It's a strong name, but beautiful in its Italian form. I love the double SS and had the female alternative of 'Alyssandra' in mind (c/o Alyssa Milano) until a family-friend had named her daughter such. I love Micaela because I've adored the name Michael for the longest time, and in honour of Michael the ArchAngel
  42. Rather than 'swearing to God,' Frank and I, '...promise on Alex.'
  43. My favourite flower is a star-gazer lily
  44. I believe I'm a walking-encyclopedia of both useful and irrelevant information
  45. As soon as I turn on my computer, I have to access the following websites: facebook -even though I have it on my bb, perez hilton, and blogger
  46. If I go to Taco Bell, I will get 5 soft tacos with mild sauce and a drink (iced tea obviously) and sometimes a fries supreme!
  47. I love the smell of freshly cut grass and just-after-rain air
  48. I started French-manicuring my nails myself @ 12
  49. I'm a firm believer in The Secret
  50. I used to dye my hair constantly in high school
  51. I only wear earrings on special occasions, but have lately entertained the idea of buying a pair of studs
  52. I like to express myself in text with visuals such as the extent that I had a whole collection on my msn equalling 50+
  53. When it comes to Sex and the City, if I had to choose: I'm a Carrie or as I wrote in that post, a healthy combination of the 4
  54. I don't eat cantaloupe, we make it into a drink, by hollowing out the insides with a scraper that turns the melon scrapings into spaghetti-like strands and drink with juice/water mixture
  55. I love to scare myself and watch horror movies...real scary ones like,"The Exorcism of Emily Rose," not "Scream."
  56. I don't like wearing long sleeves, more so those that are tapered to the wrist, because I have small arms/wrists and find it annoying. That is why I either roll up my sleeves, wear shirts without them or opt for 3/4 length sleeves
  57. I don't eat pizza crust. But I LOVE Hawaiian pizza.
  58. My boyfriend and I have pinch fights -instead of pillow fights- where Rocky becomes mediator and tries to grab at each of our hands to playful!\
  59. I'm sarcastic - in a funny way. I find that a very endearing quality.
  60. I talk to my dog and have conversations with him.....not 'oh, you're a good dog' kind of conversations, but real conversations. He understands. Believe me.
  61. I drink water -on occasion- and opt for iced tea when it's available
  62. I find that I have a keen sense of style and know what items to keep that will make their rounds in the yearly fashion cycle(s) - hence why I have some articles of clothing from high school
  63. I'm a carnivore. If I were a dinosaur, I'd be T-Rex. Except more girly and less menacing
  64. I hug my boyfriend while he's sleeping
  65. I love asparagus and laugh when I think of Frank's reaction after he recently ate it for the first time and experience the after-pee smell
  66. I am somewhat a germophobe. I discovered this in the Philippines this year - where I wiped down everything, such as my flip flops, with baby wipes
  67. My toes always have to be painted; the same does not follow with my fingernails. I can go without nail polish on my hands -but never my feet.
  68. I wear flats even in the middle of winter
  69. My boyfriend makes me melt when he smiles a toothy smile (like in the picture at the side)
  70. I have an organized shelf for all my bags (and keep my shoes at the top of my closet as well
  71. I have been involved in a collision as a passenger, but never as the driver
  72. I sing in the car rather than sing in the shower
  73. I (along with my family) can devour at least 2 bunches of bananas in a single week's time.
  74. The most paranormal thing I have ever experienced is my dog barking at the end of my bed, staring as if someone was there....even if I tried to push him or go there myself, he just growled more, showed his teeth at the 'entity' with his fur standing.. *shudder*
  75. I used to work at a gym as a receptionist and never used my free membership
  76. I haven't been on the TTC (public transit -bus/subway) since 2003; otherwise I've used the GO trains to commute
  77. I don't eat fortune cookies. Ever since I got Rocky, I save it and give it to him when I get home
  78. I memorize all of my personal info such as Social Insurance number, passport number, Debit and Credit card numbers.... etc.
  79. I eat quails. Thanks to Frank's dad.
  80. I shower at night- not in the mornings.
  81. Once I went to 4 malls in one day after receiving my income tax refund.....and spent less than $100 that day (on a $1000+ return)....mama, aren't ya proud!
  82. I live in Canada and have never been in an igloo (lol!)
  83. I'm 24 and STILL a fan of the Backstreet Boys
  84. I have never been in a taxi here in Toronto
  85. Even though I don't do #2 on a daily basis -like most people I know- I do NOT have bowel problems....or any such related issue
  86. I have a Wedding Blog -not accessible to anyone but me, because I found out about a secret lurker- even though I am not engaged nor will be within the next year or 2. I do it more so to have all my ducks in a row when I am ease the hurry and stress of organizing such a Big Day
  87. If I like something in the store, and don't feel that I have the money at the time to buy it, I tell myself to 'come back for it' and if it's still there when I come back after a period of time ($ in-hand) I believe it was -meant to be-!
  88. If I have a headache/migraine, I will rarely take an advil or tylenol - and opt against taking meds. if I cant rest and let it pass on its own
  89. My sisters (5 and 7 years my senior) had Cabbage Patch Dolls; which made me want one. I ended up getting one for Christmas. It was the only boy (between my sisters/cousins) and I named him Toby
  90. I doodle on pen and paper and try creating new signatures that I know I may never use
  91. I taught my first hamster Willy to go up and down the stairs on command and race a wind up car as he ran from end to end.
  92. When I'm stressed out, I smooth out my eyebrows with my thumb and middle finger, simulataneously
  93. I believe all is fair in love and war
  94. Recently I have been falling asleep with the Fireplace Channel on
  95. I am Catholic yet still believe that gays and lesbians DO have the right to marry
  96. I drink orange pekoe tea with carnation milk (evaporated milk) and 3 sugar
  97. My fave beverage @ starbucks is their Double Chocolaty Chip Frap ---which I was extremely delighted that they had in the Philippines...made me feel like I was home.
  98. I have seen a rat, the size of a cat, in the Philippines. No word of a lie.
  99. I believe in miracles.
  100. I'm a dog person. But most importantly an animal lover. My mom said I should have became a Veterinarian..but I couldn't because I'd hate to see sick, dying animals. Frank and I cried watching the end of Marley & Me.

Numerology (and I)

What your first name means:
EnglishFemaleDiminutive of Jillian : Child of the gods. A modern variant of Gillian, which is a feminine form of Julian, meaning Jove's child.

Your number is: 6

The characteristics of #6 are: Responsibility, protection, nurturing, community, balance, sympathy.

The expression or destiny for #6:
The number 6 Expression provides you a truly outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance. The 6 is helpful and ever conscientious, making you quite capable of rectifying and balancing any sort of inharmonious situation. You are a person very much inclined to give help and comfort to those in need. You have a natural penchant for working with the old, the young, the sick, or the underprivileged. Although you may have considerable creative and artistic talents, the chances are that you will devote yourself to an occupation that shows concern for the betterment of the community.

The positive side of the number 6 suggests that you are very loving, friendly, and appreciative of others. You have a depth of understanding that produces much sympathetic, kindness, and generosity. The qualities of the 6 make the finest and most concerned parent and one often deeply involved in domestic activities. Openness and honesty is apparent in your approach to all relationships.

If there is an excess of the number 6 in your makeup, you may exhibit some of the negative traits associated with this number. There may be a tendency for you to be too exacting and demanding of yourself. In this regard, you may at times sacrifice yourself (or your loved ones) for the welfare of others. In some cases, the over zealous 6 has difficulty distinguishing helping from interfering. You may have difficulty expressing your own individuality, because of involvement with responsibilities and causes. Like all with the Expression of the number 6, it's quite likely that you worry much too much.

Your Soul Urge number is: 6

A Soul Urge number of 6 means:
With a number 6 Soul Urge, you would like to be appreciated for your ability to handle responsibility. Your home and family are likely to be a strong focus for you, perhaps the strongest focus of your life. Friendship, love, and affection are high on your list of priorities for a happy life. You have a lot of diplomatic tendencies in your makeup, as you a able to rectify and balance situations with an innate skill. You like working with people rather than by yourself. It is extremely important for you to have harmony in your environment at all times.

The positive side of the 6 Soul Urge produces a huge capacity for responsibility; you are always there and ready to assume more than your share of the load. If you possess positive 6 Soul Urges and express them, you are known for your generosity, understanding and deep sympathetic attitude. Strong 6 energy is very giving of love, affection, and emotional support. You may have the inclination to teach or serve your community in other idealistic ways. You have natural abilities to help people. You are also likely to have artistic and creative leanings.

If you have an over-supply of 6 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative traits common to this number. With such a strong sympathetic attitude, it is easy to become too emotional. Sometimes the desires to render help can be over done, and it can become interfering and an attitude that is too protective, rather than helpful. The person with too much 6 energy often finds that people tend to take advantage of this very giving spirit. You may tend to repress your own needs so that you can cater to the demands from others. At times, there may be a tendency in this, for becoming over-loaded with such demands, and as a result become resentful.

Your Inner Dream number is: 9

An Inner Dream number of 9 means:
You dream of being creative, intellectual, and universal; the selfless humanitarian. You understand the needy and want to help them. You would love to be a person people count on for support and advice.

21 March 2010

Living the Love Life of a Hallmark Card

Doing some spring cleaning....shredding a whole lot of stuff, I found a card that I gave to Frank (and kept) as I loved what the card said.

Ever have those moments in a card shoppe where a card has everything that you want it to say??

Here's my Hallmark moment:

When I wait in the car and you run into the store to grab a few things, I watch you walk your walk, and I can't help but smile to myself. Still checking you out after all these years. Happy anniversary

When I Meet God...

Maybe I've watched too much TV, but I think that when I meet -our maker- He'll be kind enough to possibly take my request and answer some questions I have.

My mom told me that I've always been inquisitive; ever since I could say Why. Almost everything I say ends with a question mark -?- sometimes accompanied by his good old friend the exclamation mark -!-

Anyway, as I sit here in bed, here are some questions I'd ask the 'Man Upstairs' when I enter those Gates.

(order is insignificant)
  1. Whatever happened to my Penguin stuffed toy that I saw on the highway the night of our accident/collision in 1992?
  2. Why did I have all those nails in my tires for a period of time?
  3. Is that whole Roswell conspiracy legit? Was that really an alien life form?
  4. ^do extraterrestrials/UFOs exist?
  5. Where do missing socks go? A blackhole?
  6. What would Frank and I's lives be like if we didn't end up together?
  7. If we didn't get Rocky....where would he have ended up?
  8. What's the deal with The Bermuda Triangle?
  9. Who shot J.R....? Oops, I mean JFK?! (John Fitzgerald Kennedy) R.I.P.
  10. Do Dogs really go to heaven?
  11. Does the Lochness Monster really exist?
  12. Are psychics legit?
  13. Did aliens guide the Egyptians in building the pyramids?
  14. Who makes crop circles--- they're not all hoaxes....?!
  15. Bigfoot?
  16. Did OJ do it? Was Kaylee killed by her mother Casey Anthony?
  17. Where did my wallet go in grade 11 with my keys?
  18. The Shroud of Turin? Is that really Jesus' face?
  19. The lost city of Atlantis? Where is it's location...
  20. Who stole my 'Dear Diary' - electronic diary- in grade 5?
....what would you ask??

The Cheating Curve

What constitutes cheating?? Where do you draw the line?
  1. physical (obviously)
  2. emotional
Emotional cheating is where things can become a grey (gray sp?) area for some people; but for me, it's still in the category, hence is labelled as Cheating.

In relationships, you can have an emotional disconnect from the relationship, and find solace in another person. Be it sexual in nature or not, investing emotions outside of the relationship that belong IN the relationship is a big no-no.

Not only are you being dishonest with your partner, but you are lying to yourself and denying the relationship the communication that needs to happen to fix-repair-work on the problem at hand.

Sex-ting is an example. Thank you, Tiger Woods, for being Exhibit A.
  • technology has increased avenues for people to connect/communicate with each other, but unfortunately, that gives people a way to keep their affairs at arms length from detection, but just within reach to continue and prosper.
  • Facebook is a prime example of how Exes can play pop-goes-the-weasel and re-enter your life, at the click of a mouse.
To cheat is to cheat yourself short, of anything good.


What Really Grinds My Gears

Here's a list of
What Really Grind My Gears!!
  1. People who think their sh*t doesn't stink.
  2. People who refuse to hold the door open when they know you're following right behind them
  3. People without manners. Not only does it make you look like a complete a*s, but it ruins my day.
  4. People who think that saying 'Excuse Me' excuses you from shoving your way through the crowd.
  5. Service people who fail to provide Customer Service. Be it via the telephone, retail, or restaurant - everyone's worked for minimum wage at least once in their lives...if you're that unhappy, take your bad attitude/mood somewhere else, where you can benefit from being crabby, inconsiderate, and neglectful.
  6. People who spend their money to display that they are 'better than you.' You may have some of the 'finer things in life' but let's see who really has money in the bank.
  7. Ungrateful/unappreciative people. People who can't see past themselves, and think that the world is meant to serve them will be served a great disservice when karma hits them where it hurts.
  8. People who 'host' events but ask that you BYO_. I agree with potlucks or things of the sort, and never go anywhere empty-handed, but to be a host involves more than just opening your door to people.
  9. People who bail out of events last minute and make it blatantly obvious but do not have the cojones to just put it out there.
  10. People who claim that their 'difficult life' is at fault for their e.g. 'drug problem' when in fact they are spoiled individuals who have never really known hardship - like those in developing nations who live in war-stricken areas, have death knocking at their doorstep etc. be continued.

Controlling Women

I will never be able to understand a relationship where a guy completely castrates himself and lets his 'woman' take control of every aspect of the relationship -and- his life. Coming from the female perspective, I understand the desire to be able to take the reins on some things, but to act like Mini Mussolinis and dictate the life of another person (supposedly someone you love) is beyond me.

I am witness to relationships where the female counterpart of the relationship quote on quote 'wears the pants' and might as well 'own the bank account' of their significant other.

Sure, investing in a relationship is one thing, but I believe money/finances should only be joint if there is a joint benefit.

I've seen it all. The girlfriend, also known as
  • the financial advisor
  • the fiscal spender
  • the decision maker when it comes to where he goes, with whom, when to return
  • the stylist (what to wear, how to wear it)
and the list goes on.

I'll admit, when it comes to Frank, I'll put in my 2 cents, but the decision is always his in the end. The only joint matter we have at the moment, is Rocky.

Until we have a house, mortgage, otherwise, REAL investments, -he can do what he wants, how he wants.

Even then, I know that I will never rule him. I'll never bring him down infront of his friends. I'll never take away something that he had before there was US - his independence.

Women who take control of their other half, take more than just control... they take away the other person's ability to stand on their own two feet.

When the other person becomes dependent on you - that's when you've enabled the person to become just what you wanted all along - putty in your hands. So don't complain when he's not up to par with what you want him to be.

Take responsibility for your dictatorship. When you become the leader, he will always, only be a follower.

I prefer a sidekick relationship. One where we stand side-by-side, and have each other's backs; come hell or high water.

End Rant.

20 March 2010

Dermot Mulroney

On behaf of St.Patrick's Day this week, I have chosen Dermot Mulroney - as my next Cock-a-doodle Do!

I truly love him in My Best Friend's Wedding and The Wedding Date.

Also See this uber hot scene from 2005's The Wedding Date by clicking Here

19 March 2010

Aidan & Carrie: My Heartbreak.

To this day, watching Season 4 episodes still completely breaks my heart into a million pieces. Even though I know where the fates (aka the writers) have weaved Carrie's love life. It still bothers me that Carrie finds her happily ever after sans Prince Charming.

BIG (John James Preston) is the runner up IMO of Carrie's love interests throughout the show. Although he plays (in my world, Sex and the City can't be referred to in past tense; it'll live on forever! LOL) a Big role in her life, I will forever be a Team Aidan Fan.

Many people are satisfied with Big's "Carrie, You're the One." speel but for me, Pro-Aidan, I have plenty of evidence to the contrary; so here I announce why Carrie's wedded name should be:

Carrie Bradshaw Shaw!

  1. Pete approved of Carrie when they first met (hell, he humped her leg!)
  2. He held off sleeping with her right away - and surprised her with a bath/candles to show that he really cared about her; "It's only been a week, don't people date anymore?"
  3. When she wanted her 'space' he gave it to her....when she wanted 'less space,' he said "I have a life, I was just making room for you in it."
  4. He refinished her floors
  5. When they met at his and Steve's bar, he didn't throw a tantrum; he was civil.
  6. He took her back after he announced, "You Broke My Heart!!!"
  7. He admitted that he was 'tempted' to cheat with the bartender but DIDN'T!
  8. He lived with BIG's big part in Carrie's life...even after they had the affair!
  9. He took our City Shoegal into the country -and out of her comfort zone- he introduced her to new things outside her New York State of Mind....and showed her that a squirrel isn't. "a rat with a cuter outfit!"
  10. He let BIG come up and stay over at his country house when it was unsafe for him to drive home wasted.
  11. He carried Miranda (without taking a sneak peek) when her neck went out and took her to the doctor.
  12. He bought her a MAC and a Zip drive so that she could back up her writing
  13. He suggested becoming her lover-and-landlord
  14. He proposed with Pete!
  15. He tried breaking down 'Carrie's Wall'
  16. He -was- just what she needed.
^but his Achilles Heel: He forgave, but didn't forget...and would never forget, or trust her.

All About She - In a Nutshell

  1. N(ouns) - funny, sarcastic, witty, pretty....good at anything lol, a pure perfectionist, organized, punctual, laid back, down-to-earth, dreamer, writer, reader, lover, fighter...the list goes on.
  2. U(sually) - in bed on my laptop, with a mug of orange pekoe tea with 3 sugar and evaporated milk with Rocky by my side, watching The Fireplace Channel -- thereafter falling asleep to the crackling of the fire.
  3. T(elephone, -elevision, elepathy?) - I swear, opposable thumbs were created by evolution primarily for use on a Blackberry (BOO to all you iPhone PING wannabes.) TV - on the tube I love Days of Our Lives, Ellen, Dr.Phil, Tyra, Nancy Grace, History/Discovery/Learning Channel shows, HGTV, CosmoTV, CSI: Miami, Dancing with the Stars, lol and thanks to jet lag from the Philippines in January: Jersey Shore! GTL!! -telepathy? People often say that I 'read their minds' and called when they were about to call, or sent a msg as they were writing it, or asked a question they were about to ask/discuss.
  4. S(ayings) - " Education is an investment in yourself." "If you're in my past: Goodbye. If you're in my present: Make it worthwhile, but if you're in my future: You Passed the Test." "All is fair in love and war." "Smile, even if it hurts." "If I got a nickel for everytime I was right...I'd be a millionaire!"
  5. H(obbies) - do these really exist nowadays? Really, I BLOG. Push-button publishing is fast, efficient and the quickest way to exercise my brain and hit the refresh button on my thoughts and get those creative juices flowing.. other than that I've been hibernating from the cold, doing 'online browsing' for this season's fashion finds.
  6. E(ducation) - @ York University pursuing my Psychology Degree not to become a psychologist, but a teacher. Dr.Phil aroused my interest in the field, and guidance counselling is a branch off of getting a BEd.
  7. L(ikes) - watching movies and getting popcorn (extra butter, layered please!), window shopping, online browsing, dreaming, planning, having her head in the clouds but feet on the ground.
  8. L(oves) - eating steak (I'm a carnivore) --or should I say, eating, Period; walking on The Boardwalk -google Toronto's Boardwalk- taking Rocky out for a proper stroll, playfighting with my better half, watching my nieces grow up, Double Chocolaty (sic) Chip Frapp. & Vanilla Bean from Starbucks, Sushi! Audi-s-, LR2, Sex and the City, driving with her sunroof open, music blasted, cruising on the highway...going to Niagara Falls, and finally, My life and those in it.

Victoria Says....or should I say Buys

A source close to Posh said: "Victoria does not own hundreds of Hermes bags. She actually has 34."

18 March 2010

10 to 1 of My Life: A Teeny Bopper Day

My girls and I used to do these surveys all the time and email them to each other, and make fun of each others' responses...well I lied; they'd make fun of mine. Not necessarily what I said, but how I said it.

Prime example: boxers or briefs?

My answer: No Preference.

^they'd tease that a normal 17yo would answer something along the lines of, " I don't care," or "whatever."

And to this day, to that I say, "Whatevs." - blackberry messenger speak.

How did you get one of your scars?
I tripped over my own feet while attempting to jay walk, resulting in two scars on both my hands, and caps on my two front teeth!
How did you celebrate your last birthday? The night before (as my birthday fell on a Monday) I had my immediate fam, my bf, my bff and her bf come over for my fave chinese (Lam Kee) and three birthday cakes: double chocolate, mocha fudge, and caramilk. In addition, the weekend following, we headed down to Niagara Falls -got a room- ate at the Keg, went to the casino and pigged out some more after midnight.
How are you feeling at this moment? Anxious - have one more course to finish for the year. It's course weight will determine a lot for me.
How did your night go last night? Same as usual, ended off with orange pekoe tea with evaporated milk +3 sugar. I know - sugar is bad. Diabetes runs in my family
How did you do in high school? Better than now - Honour Roll all 4 years, Received Ontario Scholar status
How did you get the shirt you're wearing? It's a brown v-neck Tommy Hilfiger longsleeve tee that my mom and dad got me for Christmas 2008
How often do you see ur best friend? Lately, at least once a week
How much money did you spend last month? What I made is what I spent. Undisclosed amount.
How old do you want to be when you get married? Guessing from our 'set' date, I will be 28
How old will you be at your next birthday? 25. A quarter of a century old.

Your mothers name?
What did you do last weekend? Watched, "She's Out of My League" and had a bridal shower on Sunday
What is the most important part of your life? My love life - Frank, Rocky and Fam.
What would you rather be doing? Laying on a beach
What did you last cry over? Life.
What always makes you feel better when you’re upset? Seeing Rocky wag his tail at me
What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other? That his name is Francesco *Espada
What are you worried about? Life.
What did you have for breakfast? Nothing lol.

Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
Yes. Frank. But that's all out of the way now lol!
Have you ever had your heartbroken? Yes, see question above.
Have you ever been out of the country? Yes, to the United States and The Philippines
Have you ever done something outrageously dumb? See first question from set 1.
Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend? Who hasn't.
Have you ever had sex on the beach? The drink, yes.
Have you ever dated someone younger than you? Haha, technically Frank IS younger than me - by 7 months
Have you ever read an entire book in one day? Almost - To Kill A Mockingbird - had one or two chapters left.

Who was the last person you saw?
My sister Jackie
Who was the last person you texted? Via SMS Text - Kristine, via Blackberry Messenger - Melissa
Who was the last person you hungout with? Mel (and Steve) - we went on a sushi date. Tripod.
Who was the last person to call you? Frank
Who did you last hug? My mom and dad
Who is the last person who texted you? Kristine
Who was the last person you said "i love you" to? Person - Frank. Almost human - Rocky.

Where does your best friend live?
Pickering, Ontario - just outside the Greater Toronto Area
Where did you last go? ...before work? The Shell Gas station by my house
Where did you last hang out? ...umm, does the cafe inside the movie theatre count as a hang out? lol
Where do you go to school? York University
Where is your favorite place to be? In my bed or in my car.
Where did you sleep last night? First part of the question above.

Do you like someone right now?
Do you think anyone likes you? Duh.
Do you ever wish you were someone else? Sometimes I wish I was myself SOMEWHERE else.
Do you know the muffin man? No, but I'll be sure to ask the gingerbread man if he knows his whereabouts.
Does the future scare you? Yes, because it is so uncertain right now.

Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)?
Cause she knows me well and can make fun of me without it bothering me
Why did you get a myspace? Null and void.
Why did your parents give you the name you have? I'm named after some American actress...?
Why are you doing this survey? Reliving my child-teenage years.

If you could have one super power what would it be??
To twinkle my nose and get whatever I want like 'I Dream of Jeannie'
If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you? YES. DEFINITELY
If u were stranded on a deserted island & could bring 1 thing what would you bring? A survival kit

Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you? NO WAY.
Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
No need to ask me more than once.

Are you happy with your life right now?
I'm grateful for what I have, and am happy with parts of it, but there's always room for improvement.

Whipped C.r.e.a.m.

Whenever I get something to drink like a hot chocolate or double chocolaty chip frap from Starbucks, I indulge myself with whipped cream - all dieters aghast!

I like light airy-ness of whipped cream and how it tops off everything (raspberries, pies, cookies) quite well; with or without a cherry.

I've come to realized that I love whipped cream. And add to that, c.r.e.a.m.

Cash Rules Everything Around Me.

A simple statement that holds more truth than even I could realize, and here's why

  1. cash flow is - and has been dictated - by school. Paying and attempting to pay for it myself has eaten up summers' full time work and school year part time hours
  2. money is the reason why i'm still stuck in school (whole or in part)
  3. I am not in 'debt' per se, but am indebted to family
  4. there's no charge for being alive but living costs money
  5. my dream job will cost me more money than my undergrad alone
  6. money is what puts gas in my car allowing me to go to work to make money
  7. cash crunch - fixed vs. variable expenses
  8. I've learned what needs and wants are
  9. Delayed gratification is a definition of my situation
  10. ---knowing that one day all of this will -work- out.

How Money makes me Smile

  • when I buy a gift for someone- and it's something that they really like
  • when I can treat a well-deserved person out to a meal
  • when I can say 'it's on me' and not 'on him' for once
  • when I can get Rocky a new toy and have him so excited that I can't differentiate which is wiggling more, his tail or his butt.
  • when I can owe what's due to my sister
  • when I can buy something for myself knowing its a good deal, saving money as I spend it
  • when happiness comes from not worring about money.

17 March 2010

Lacy Liu

Romanticism is back and blush, ecru and ivory lace are here to seduce the senses. Waiting for your Prince Charming to come along and drown you with his chivalry, lace yourself in lace and maybe he'll come along.

Polkaroo or Polkadots?

I've liked polkadots ever since I was little because my mother would wear them for New Year's Eve as they are 'good luck.'

Polka dots are making their rounds this season and I am ever so delighted, because I only have one polka dot article in my closet. So I'm eager to add more items! Especially that the bigger dots are on the scene.

I'm gonna be a living Polkaroo. For those not yet alive during Polkaroo - and Polka dot door - GOOGLE it.

Khaki, Jeans and Cognac O My

I will forever be emulating this outfit this season, as many of my articles fit one of the three categories
  1. khaki
  2. jean
  3. cognac (leather)

The combinations are endless. I love the look; how effortless it is and how it's a fabulous combination of all-of-the-above with pieces that are versatile and can be worn season after season. Many of my khaki, jean articles are YEARS old. and by YEARS I mean PRE 2003-4!

That's why you gotta be savvy and know whats a keeper when doing your spring cleaning!

Black and White: Yin and Yang

Back to the basics, black and white are the Yin and Yang of fashion. Colours that never 'go out of style' -when paired together, they become a super duo of a clothing statement. You can never go wrong when having a black-and-white outfit, cause they balance each other perfectly. Using different textures when dressing up as Yin and Yang, will further add UMPH to your outfit.

Neutral Earth Tones

Neutral earth tones are what's good for this spring/summer. So bring out your brushed khaki, embellished ivory, and textured taupe ensembles.

A lighter look for the season - these tones can be paired with pastels or cognac leathers to either further soften or redefine/harden the look.

Who Wears Short Shorts

I honestly can't wait til I can bring my shorts out from my dresser and get some (more) sun on my stems!

Plus that I've been dying to wear heels and strut around in my many barely worn shoes; shorts can be dressed up or down.

I have different pairs for different outfits and weather permitting, I'm going to be starting a What's She's Wearing portion, where I'll take a pic of outfits that I wear (probably not daily though)

Less is More

Small bags are making their way back into hands or shoulders via sling bags as less is more this season. Despite the trend of seasons past for hobos, I kept my beloved small bags for those days where I didn't feel like lugging my whole life on my shoulders.

Right now I've been happily trotting around with my white Guess faux snakeskin boat bag. It's a handbag that come with a shoulder strap. I love it's zebra interior lining; an oldie but a goodie

The Carrie Diaries Sneak Peek - EXCERPT

As I mentioned previously, Candace Bushnell is releasing a book giving us a glimpse of Pre-Twenty-Something Carrie (high school) in The Carrie Diaries.

Here is an excerpt.

They say a lot can happen in a summer.
Or not.

It's the first day of senior year, and as far as I can tell, I'm exactly the same as I was last year.And so is my best friend, Lali.

"Don't forget, Bradley, we have to get boyfriends this year," she says, starting the engine of the red pickup truck she inherited from one of her older brothers.


We were supposed to get boyfriends last year and we didn't.

I open the door and scoot in, sliding the letter into my biology book, where, I figure, it can do no more harm. "Can't we give this whole boyfriend thing a rest? We already know all the boys in our school. And—"

"Actually, we don't," Lali says as she slides the gear stick into reverse, glancing over her shoulder.

Of all my friends, Lali is the best driver. Her father is a cop and insisted she learn to drive when she was twelve, in case of an emergency.

"I hear there's a new kid," she says.


The last new kid who came to our school turned out to be a stoner who never changed his overalls."

Jen P says he's cute. Really cute.""Uh-huh." Jen P was the head of Leif Garrett's fan club in sixth grade.

"If he actually is cute, Donna LaDonna will get him."

"He has a weird name," Lali says. "Sebastian something. Sebastian Little?""Sebastian Kydd?"

I gasp.

"That's it," she says, pulling into the parking lot of the high school. She looks at me suspiciously.

"Do you know him?"I hesitate, my fingers grasping the door handle. My heart pounds in my throat; if I open my mouth, I'm afraid it will jump out. I shake my head.

We're through the main door of the high school when Lali spots my boots. They're white patent leather and there's a crack on one of the toes, but they're genuine go-go boots from the early seventies. I figure the boots have had a much more interesting life than I have.

"Bradley," she says, eyeing the boots with disdain. "As your best friend, I cannot allow you to wear those boots on the first day of senior year.

"Too late," I say gaily. "Besides, someone's got to shake things up around here."

"Don't go changing."

Lali makes her hand into a gun shape, kisses the tip of her finger, and points it at me before heading for her locker.

"Good luck, Angel," I say. Changing. Ha. Not much chance of that. Not after the letter.

Dear Ms. Bradshaw, it read. Thank you for your application to the New School's Advanced Summer Writing Seminar. While your stories show promise and imagination, we regret to inform you that we are unable to offer you a place in the program at this time.

I got the letter last Tuesday. I reread it about fifteen times, just to be sure, and then I had to lie down.

Not that I think I'm so talented or anything, but for once in my life, I was hoping I was.

I didn't tell anyone about it. I didn't even tell anyone I'd applied, including my father. He went to Brown and expects me to go there, too. He thinks I'd make a good scientist. And if I can't hack molecular structures, I can always go into biology and study bugs.

I'm halfway down the hall when I spot Cynthia Viande and Tommy Brewster, Castlebury's golden Pod couple. Tommy isn't too bright, but he is the center on the basketball team. Cynthia, on the other hand, is senior class president, head of the prom committee, an outstanding member of National Honor Society, and got all the Girl Scout badges by the time she was ten.

She and Tommy have been dating for three years. I try not to give them much thought, but alphabetically, my last name comes right before Tommy's, so I'm stuck with the locker next to his and stuck sitting next to him in assembly, and therefore basically stuck seeing him—and Cynthia—every day.

"And don't make those goofy faces during assembly," Cynthia scolds. "This is a very important day for me. And don't forget about Daddy's dinner on Saturday."

"What about my party?" Tommy protests."You can have the party on Friday night," Cynthia snaps.

There could be an actual person inside of Cynthia, but if there is, I've never seen it. I swing open my locker.

Cynthia suddenly looks up and spots me. Tommy gives me a blank stare, as if he has no idea who I am, but Cynthia is too well brought up for that.

"Hello, Carrie," she says, like she's thirty years old instead of seventeen.

Changing. It's hard to pull off in this little town.

"Welcome to hell school," a voice behind me says.

It's Walt. He's the boyfriend of one of my other best friends, Maggie. Walt and Maggie have been dating for two years, and the three of us do practically everything together. Which sounds kind of weird, but Walt is like one of the girls.

"Walt," Cynthia says. "You're just the man I want to see."

"If you want me to be on the prom committee, the answer is no."

Cynthia ignores Walt's little joke. "It's about Sebastian Kydd. Is he really coming back to Castlebury?"

Not again. My nerve endings light up like a Christmas tree.

"That's what Doreen says." Walt shrugs as if he couldn't care less. Doreen is Walt's mother and a guidance counselor at Castlebury High. She claims to know everything, and passes all her information on to Walt—the good, the bad, and the completely untrue.

"I heard he was kicked out of private school for dealing drugs," Cynthia says. "I need to know if we're going to have a problem on our hands."

"I have no idea," Walt says, giving her an enormous fake smile. Walt finds Cynthia and Tommy nearly as annoying as I do.

"What kind of drugs?" I ask casually as we walk away."Painkillers?""Like in Valley of the Dolls?" It's my favorite secret book, along with the DSM-III, which is this tiny manual about mental disorders.

"Where the hell do you get painkillers these days?"

"Oh, Carrie, I don't know," Walt says, no longer interested. "His mother?""Not likely."

I try to squeeze the memory of my one-and-only encounter with Sebastian Kydd out of my head but it sneaks in anyway.

I was twelve and starting to go through an awkward stage. I had skinny legs and no chest, two pimples, and frizzy hair. I was also wearing cat's-eye glasses and carrying a dog-eared copy of What About Me? by Mary Gordon Howard. I was obsessed with feminism. My mother was remodeling the Kydds' kitchen, and we'd stopped by their house to check on the project. Suddenly, Sebastian appeared in the door-way. And for no reason, and completely out of the blue, I sputtered,

"Mary Gordon Howard believes that most forms of sexual intercourse can be classified as rape."

For a moment, there was silence. Mrs. Kydd smiled. It was the end of the summer, and her tan was set off by her pink and green shorts in a swirly design. She wore white eye shadow and pink lipstick. My mother always said Mrs. Kydd was considered a great beauty.

"Hopefully you'll feel differently about it once you're married.""Oh, I don't plan to get married. It's a legalized form of prostitution."

"Oh my." Mrs. Kydd laughed, and Sebastian, who had paused on the patio on his way out, said, "I'm taking off."

"Again, Sebastian?" Mrs. Kydd exclaimed with a hint of annoyance. "But the Bradshaws just got here."

Sebastian shrugged. "Going over to Bobby's to play drums.

"I stared after him in silence, my mouth agape. Clearly Mary Gordon Howard had never met a Sebastian Kydd.

It was love at first sight...

In assembly, I take my seat next to Tommy Brewster, who is hitting the kid in front of him with a notebook. A girl in the aisle is asking if anyone has a tampon, while two girls behind me are excitedly whispering about Sebastian Kydd, who seems to become more and more notorious each time his name is mentioned.

"I heard he went to jail—"
"His family lost all their money—"
"No girl has managed to hold on to him for more than three weeks—"

I force Sebastian Kydd out of my thoughts by pretending Cynthia Viande is not a fellow student but a strange species of bird.

Habitat: any stage that will have her.
Plumage: tweed skirt, white shirt with cashmere sweater, sensible shoes, and a string of pearls that is probably real.
She keeps shifting her papers from one arm to the other and tugging down her skirt, so maybe she's a little nervous after all.

I know I would be. I wouldn't want to be, but I would. My hands would be shaking and my voice would come out in a squeak, and afterward, I'd hate myself for not taking control of the situation.

The principal, Mr. Jordan, goes up to the mike and says a bunch of boring stuff about being on time for classes and something about a new system of demerits, and then Ms. Smidgens informs us that the school newspaper, The Nutmeg, is looking for reporters and how there's some earthshaking story about cafeteria food in this week's issue.

And finally, Cynthia walks up to the mike.
"This is the most important year of our lives. We are poised at the edge of a very great precipice. In nine months, our lives will be irreparably altered," she says, like she thinks she's Winston Churchill or something.

I'm half expecting her to add that all we have to fear is fear itself, but instead, she continues: "So this year is all about senior moments. Moments we'll remember forever."

Suddenly Cynthia's expression changes to one of annoyance as everyone's head starts swiveling toward the center of the auditorium.

Donna LaDonna is coming down the aisle. She's dressed like a bride, in a white dress with a deep V, her ample cleavage accentuated by a tiny diamond cross hanging from a delicate platinum chain. Her skin is like alabaster; on one wrist, a constellation of silver bracelets peal like bells when she moves her arm.

The auditorium falls silent.

Cynthia Viande leans into the mike. "Hello, Donna. So glad you could make it."

"Thanks," Donna says, and sits down.
Everyone laughs. Donna nods at Cynthia and gives her a little wave, as if signaling her to continue.

Donna and Cynthia are friends in that weird way that girls are when they belong to the same clique but don't really like each other."

As I was saying," Cynthia begins again, trying to recapture the crowd's attention, "this year is all about senior moments. Moments we'll remember forever."

She points to an AV guy, and the song "The Way We Were" comes over the loudspeaker.

I groan and bury my face in my notebook. I start to giggle along with everyone else, but then I remember the letter and get depressed again.

But every time I feel bad, I try to remind myself about what this little kid said to me once. She was loaded with personality—so ugly she was cute. And you knew she knew it too.

"Carrie?" she asked. "What if I'm a princess on another planet? And no one on this planet knows it?"

That question still kind of blows me away. I mean, isn't it the truth?

Whoever we are here, we might be princesses somewhere else. Or writers. Or scientists. Or presidents. Or whatever the hell we want to be that everyone else says we can't be.

My thoughts:
    • Carrie's lack of a relationship in high school is opposite to the series (where she dates X-Files actor David Duchovny -whom in the series is her high school sweetheart that ends up having been self-admitted to a mental institution where he 'finds it peaceful.' Cue the screaming patient being chased after by attendants.
    • Carrie's awkwardness and insecurity is captured even in her teens
    • Carrie's feminism seems a bit extreme but does detail her follow in her subsequent years as a relationship/sex columnist who questions men, relationships and women's everyday dealings with life in New York as a single woman
    • Being single seems to be a theme in the life story of Carrie Bradshaw

I'm intrigued to read on and see if Candace does Carrie any justice. :)